"I look up to the sky, and now the world is mine.
I've known with all my life, i made it, i made it."

today wasnt a good day ): okay, it was. but only that little bit. just that bit :/
sigh, slept at 2 yesterday. and could you actually believe that even tho i've been studying for 7.5 hrs, i wasn't done with my friggin bio!
wtf lah srsly. and there was only 3 chapters. and MYE is just 1 week + away! must start mugging everyday alr.
and if i rly cmi, then use the method i used yesterday ): that was to sleep wake up study nap study study study then conk out.
awesome much huh. everyone said that i was crazy when i told that what i did yesterday. everyone leh. so demoralizing.
stupid Peishan still say i memorise the wrong things! c'mon! where's all that enouragement gone to! tsk.
Mr Yong yelled at the class today. its scary, the first time ever i saw him lose control over himself. we must have been rly bad.
so did Mr Tan :/ we seem to agitate the teachers a lot. but what to do, we deserve it all.
stayed back during recess to do up my history. oh, i passed my history test ^^ 10/20. HAH, in your face. sorry, i meant. IN MY FACE I PASSSED HAH LYN I PASSED
this kind of lousy mark oso happy -_- must buck up alr.
was getting all distracted so i spammed eat sweets (/super no link). only started concentrating after i plugged in my earpiece.
ah, the wonder of music. just realised. when i listen to TOP rap, i will tend to write a lot faster :D TOP, i heart you! heheheh.


today, Mr Tan said smth that made me think a lot and a lot.
he said "You guys only say what you want to achieve in life. You want this this this but you never put in the effort. You know what you want but you just dont bother."
i know what i want. Oxford. you may think im a retard and scream at me in hokkien "SIAO LIAO AH, OXFORD LEH, LE XIONG OXFORD XIANG BUAY CAI ANIKWAN AH!" which simply translates to "Crazy ah, Oxford leh, you think oxford is (as easy) like buying vege (from the market) ah!"
but that is my ambition. have always wanted to go there, i mean, its almost impossible lah. if i can even go to NUS i'd be laughing my head off alr.
to me, Oxford is the place when everything starts. whereby you can go to places that you never went, thought of things you never thought of. basically, its the start of a new begining.
sounds like a whole lot of rubbish but thats what Oxford is to me. its my target my aim.
and yes, i know its wholly impossible to achieve cuz Oxford accepts only top students but im a girl who studies in the almost unknown AHS studying in 7 sub and is the last 100 of the school.
but i want to. want to break it all. i want to stop the sterotyped thinking that AHS ppl can only work under the goverment (aka RJC & ACSI).
cuz im tired of living the way life is, tired of the route that im supposed to take. just wna make that bit and well, give it all.
hear me speak, at least i know i tried (;

tomolo is oral. the dreaded day. i have no idea why, i always blush whenever i talk to the teachers! and then they will laugh at me -_-
ah well, im shy mah. no joke kkay.
i feel like dying, my head is aching! arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

when you say that, do you mean about me, or about the situation you're in.
cuz you are srsly no helping at all. not helping my clear up my confused mind ): you act like you dont have a damn in the world and .. well, i can't rly care much.
its you and yourself against the world, count me out.

-then up to here-